On Friday night I was up until 2am finishing an assignment for uni that was due at midnight.
I was frantically trying to get it done all the while kicking myself for not starting it until Wednesday.
What’s worse was it was a journal assignment. All I’d had to do was write 350 words on a set reading each week.
But I didn’t do the readings.
I had ‘many other’ things to do that albeit were necessary and important, and they were also far more creative and enjoyable than reading a 20-40+ page academic article and then critically evaluating it.
So there I am internalising my self-hate at my lack of organisation, motivation and mountain of procrastination that got me in that position on a Friday night, and I have all these beautiful comments going through my head from people saying to me,
“you are amazing, you are doing so much, you are so inspiring”
and I’m feeling like a fraud.
In these moments of praise I even find myself saying to people
“I’ve got a lot of commitments but I’m not really doing any of it well”.
You see what I’ve realised is this situation is like trying to get my son to eat veges.
- He likes to eat the meat, or the thing he likes on the plate first.
- Then he’s left with the cold, unappetising veges.
- No matter how many years I’ve asked him to eat the veges first, they are so much nicer warm… he refuses and dinner ends in tears – both of us in tears!
What I recognised is this is Me!! I’d decided that assignments were hard and boring, and sometimes they are, so I set myself up to avoid them to only feel the pain later. Stubborn much?!
I teach people to take baby steps toward change. Keep your WHY in front of you to help motivate you, and with every other thing I do I’ve done this, but with uni I hadn’t.
When you know your WHY- your reason for why you’re doing something – your light at the end of the tunnel, you are far more motivated to dig in the trenches to get there.
The basis of my WHY for completing my degree is I want to help people to free themselves from their limitations to create a life of freedom– it’s the same for all I’m doing- life coaching, essential oils and business mentoring. With uni it’s about having more developed skills and training to assist on a deeper level and the recognition of having that training.
Not all the actions that are required of you to realise your dream are fun, or creative, or exciting; some of it is boring or challenging, but all the pieces are equally important and have valuable lessons to give you along the way.
My next assignment is due in a few weeks. My plan of action is to do an hour a day on it everyday to get it finished, on time or before.
My short-term reward is uni holidays start beginning of November for four months… I’ll have all the time to do the fun stuff then!
Is there something you’ve been putting off starting for all your own reasons?
Don’t want to, it’ll be hard, got other things to do?
Maybe reading this will help you know you aren’t alone, and give you a little push to take action- remember any action is a step forward and closer to your goal.